Broken promises

over my entire almost 20 years, so many people have made so many promises to me.
and very few of them have ever kept there word. I would like to say that i have never broken a promise, but, i can't. I have broken a few as well. but, it is not intentional, i intend to always keep my promise, but sometimes, fate wins.
but the people that broke these promises, they made them so effortlessly, they were so meaningful, but not only did they break them, but they flat out forgot, just didnt care, or gave me a simple, sorry something came up.
bullshit. thats not right. i don't mind if you can't do what you said, point is, don't say you'll do it.
and then blow me off for someone else. whos better.
and always will be better
cuz i'm the shit of the earth.
no one really cares.
there as been two people that have never broken there promises to me. it may take them awhile sometimes, but it happens. and i am so glad i at least have them to prove to me that not all people don't care.
i always want to cry. but i can't.
and i always feel so used.
and like nothing will ever come out to how i want it.
i am constantly being let down. while i am trying my hardest not to let down anyone else.
just don't let me down anymore......