what to do....

so i get this email from my grandma. shes askingme if i wanna go to visitation this weekend cuz theyre decorating a tree and stuff like that. and i do want to go actually. but only to have fun with my sisters and see my grandparents. but i do not want to see my mom. which is the whole point of visitation. i could just go and ignore her. but its her house and thats rude. she even left me that one message saying she doesn't care if i'm out of herlife. its just going to be so awkward. especially after court and stuff...
like really, i just took her kids away from her, said all this crap about her, in front of her, and now i'm going to her house? that doesn't make sense....
but my grandmas being such a butt and won't come to see me unless i see my mom. thats not fair. i didn't put myself in this. its not my fault my mom threatnad me, then said a bunch of lies, that basically changed my life. its not. its not fair. and what the hell am i supposed to do?!
and how is that gonna look. daughter hates mother, then goes to her house once court is over. yeah, if that doesn't look like a lie then i don't know what does. its just a bunch of crap. really. so now todays gonna be a weird day, cuz i don't know what the hell to do....
should i email her back? talk to her about it? i just don't know....
i hate this