don't you think...

i get it. don't you?!
my whole life, my mother hasn't been a mother. no, i have been a mother to myself. i have had people dislike me, hate me even. everyone has. the one thing i learned in mr. sims class was that you cannot please everyone. not everyone will like you.
the important thing is that you are your own person. yeah its hard, its gonna upset you. i get it. i cry myself to sleep sometimes, and no one knows it. because i feel useless, hated,worthless, dumb, ugly,unwanted. by my own mother. don't you think it hurts me too?
yeah, it does. i know you think i can't relate, truth is, i can. but i don't go around telling myself that the world hates me, because of one person. its hard. but you have to do it.
i try and help, talk to you, but i get it shoved down my throat every time. for "trying" to understand. yelled at. upset, hurt. whatever, this isn't gonna do any good, i'll let you figure it out yourself, since thats what it seems you want. sorry i tried.