i lost my other half...

so we were best friends. she was the cheese to my macaroni. we were like paris and nicole. of course we had our moments, fighting like best friends do, but we were always able to get over it. we would fight about the stupidest things. it was normal. there was a year we didn't get along at all. but then we had some great friends to get us back together. then there was last year. we were always seen together, never apart. if we were, everyone would ask, "wheres your other half?" it was normal. we loved each other like crazy. we told each othet anything and everything. we trusted each other so much. with our lives, well i did at least. now, now... we are two completely different people. i thought maybe it was just college, it get the best of people sometimes, i still try and tlk to her, still try and help. but it doesn't seem to work. i listen to her every word, give my opinion, and thats that. but all i ever had was this blog space.
we grew so distant, i thought we we getting closer. but no, we're far apart. maybe t was just a phase... im foinding out now that its not. she's found other people to have our talks besides me, she spends her free time with other friends, i used to be one of those friends....
i tell her everything, and she doesn't care, i call, she doesn't answer, i talk to her, ask her a question, she says, mhm. thats it. i am no longer in her life.she no longer cares about me. she has pushed me out. because what i think doesn't matter. it doesn't matter at all. sometimes, i just want to go away, with the people that do care. i know who most of them are, and i now know, se is not one of them. i give her my all, i dedicate my life to her. i do everything for her. and get nothing back. not that i expected anything back, i do it out of love, its just the fact that she repaid me like this.
i had a bad bad dream about her last night, and it turns out, it came true.
we were once best friends, and now we are not. and i want that back. i want that back so bad. but as of right now, i don't feel that i can get that back. i lost my trust in her. she has left me, she talks about me, and doesn't think before doing. i love her so much, and wish her the best, but it is time she learns to make better decissions, and learns from her mistakes rather then having other people fix them.
she was my other half. its cheesy, but the half that made me whole. and now,
now i am only half once again. without her, i feel alone. and now, im starting to feel more alone then ever...