betrayed? hurt? unwanted and untrusted?

she comes home upset, wants to talk to me, so we do. she argues with what i say, and thinks of herself only, like always. hates what i have to say, the truth, and goes to call someone who also only thinks of themself. she makes up rumors and spreads em, and gets pissed when you don't believe them, talks shit about people to make herself feel beter. guess what
life sucks sometimes. yeah it does.
and we all have to deal with it, so now i look like an ass, and feel very untrusted because she doesn't want anythingto dowith me. i feel like ive been given a job in life. to take care of them. and i failed at it, with one at least. yes
she makes me feel like ive failed.
ihate this, the distance we have. vocalhas done this to her. and im pissed.
life as i knew it is gone. and i am now alone in all of this.