just thoughts

So, i've come to realize, I have had some major bad things happen lately. and every time, I thought I would never get through it, and of course, these problems still have not stopped. they keep going, no matter what, more and more happens. So I sit here at night and think, when is this ever going to end?! then, one night, someone makes me realize. thats just it. it will never end. it's never going to end. the only time anything will come to an end is when I die. that is the ultimate end to life, death. of course! it's right in front of me! this isn't just some book, where everything is solved in the end.
it's like, a sims game. God is the controller. we are the sims, he does as he wants. our lives are planned out, every second of them. only god knows what will happen next, only he can make the changes.
one problem occurs, we solve the mystery, the story behind it all, then, we think its done, and move to the next big thing. truth is, it's not done. it keeps going! it changes. he like her, she likes him, they like him, we all like her. he did this, they did that, we got caught with this. its all a bunch of little peices of information, that get spread around, it keeps us together because it gives us something to talk about. but its never over! thats the best thing. life really is what you make of it. you can be the change. we all can! its this amazing little thing i realized.
another thing. who says what rude is. who says what the right thing to do is? it's like, god created this big peice of land, then scattered a bunch of people on it, and let us go. we are the ones that created rules, decided what is right and wrong. we created judgements, opinions, gossip. truths, lies. we became a society. we fell in love with each other, hated others, were forced to like some, and got attached to our best friends. we fought, we yelled, we hurt, then make up.
and, god watches it all. he watches our every day lives. he knows whats going on at all times. he knows whos right and whos wrong, even when we don't. when we don't even know ourselves if we're doing the right thing. but then, we go and do it anyway. trusting that no matter what hapens, he will fix things.
truth is, he will. and always does. but to fix doesn't always mean to make better. just means the problem is solved. no more mystery. nomore fights, or anger. he is what keeps it going, so that there is no end, leaving anything possible, room for change, room for fights, arguements, apologies, laughs, good talks, bad. anything and everything. he lets us battle it out, then, goes in and fixes it.
really i'm just ranting about nothing.
but my point is, shit hapens, but who says it ends there?
the best movies are the ones with those crazy twists at the end, the reason they are the best? because they are unexpected. just like life,they relate to us. so we crave it. life is a never ending movie. sit downand watch yours, then make it how you want it.