maybe life is coming to an end....

ever feel like maybe life is not worth living?
like really, what is the point anyway? we live, go through a bunch of crap and struggles, then we die somehow. so why do we even choose to live? i guess i just feel so much right now that no one cares, no one can look at the positive side of things, and the struggles i have in my life right now i shouldn't be having for at least 10 more years. i don't know who to go to, and i can't really talk to anyone about it. i'm forced into crap i don't want to do, then yelled at for trying to do soemthing right....
i honestly don't know what to do anymore.... ugh it frustrates me so much. i hate this. other people have it so easy. but really, i jsut want to start over. it's to the point where i am so afraid something is out to get me. i can't sleep at night, then i stop and think, does it matter? is it worth it to worry? when i'm gone, i'll just be gone, i'll have no more worries or struggles, so why do i care? it's not like i'm helping anyone, or changing any lives, i'm not doing anything worth acknowledging.i suck at life.... i don't even know anymore